| Location | Guildford Surrey |
| Age | 4 months |
| Cause of Death | Cot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome |
| Date of Birth | 08/11/1986 |
| Date of Death | 07/04/1987 |
| Visitors | 2,739 since 27/08/2006 |
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Allan Ward
8th November 1986 - 7th April 1987
5 months old
My preciuos baby son
My son Allan was born on 8th November 1986,a brother for Pamela and Aaron, i was so exited to have another son i couldn't wait for his brother and sister to meet him. When i took him home pamela was so exited to have another brother she wanted to help me feed and change him she was a proper little mother she was only 3 yrs old herself but she couldn't stop looking at him when he was sleeping, my other son Aaron was the same but with him only being 2 he wasn't like his sister.
I was bringing up 3 children on my own beacause my husband was again in prison he wasn't there when my son was born and wasn't there when my son died and i will never forgive him for that, but i coped with the help and support of my parents and my in-laws, i just took each day as it came and loved having my 3 children.I had got Pamela into nursery school so it was only me and the boys during the day so it wasn't to bad.
Everything was going great and then on the 7th April 1987 it all changed. I had fed and changed Allan at 5.00am put him back into his carry-cot and went back to sleep myself, i woke up at 9.00am wondering why Allan hadn't woken up for his next feed, so i went to his cot he wasn't moving so i picked him up and that's when i knew i had lost him. It was a day i will never forget as long as i live, i just went through the day in a daze and trying to explain to a 2 and 3 year old where there brother was is something i will never like anyone to go through.
It has been 19 years since i lost my baby boy and not a day goes past when i don't think about him wondering if he would have been like my other son (who is such a joy to be around)or if he would have been like his sister (who says what she thinks and also a joy to be around). He will be 20 this year,and i miss him so much i often sit on my own and cry for him because i Love and miss him so much. It's true what they say God takes the good ones first.
Well Allan you have now got 3 beautiful nieces Sophie who is 3 Charlotte who is 1and Abbie who is 2 months old.
And you have a nephew Kieran who is also 1 (Aaron's)son.
Sophie has seen pictures of you and i tell her it's your uncle Allan.
R.I.P my baby boy I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I MISS YOU SO MUCH
Good night darling
Kisses and Cuddles
mummy
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Happy 25th Birthday to my Son
I only have a picture now,
A frozen piece of time,
To remind me of how it was,
When you were here, and mine.
I see your smiling eyes,
Each morning when I wake,
I talk to you, and place a kiss,
Upon your lovely face.
How much I miss you being here,
I really can not say,
The ache is deep inside my heart,
And never goes away.
I hear it mentioned often,
That time will heal the pain,
But if I'm being honest,
I hope it will remain.
I need to feel you constantly,
To get me through the day,
I loved you so very much,
Why did you go away?
The angels came and took you,
That really wasn't fair,
i didn't want to leave you
In someone elses care.
If only they had asked me,
If I would take your place,
I would have done so willingly,
Leaving you this world to grace.
You should have had so many years,
To watch your life unfold,
And in the mist of this,
Watch me, your Mum grow old!
I hope your watching from above,
At the daily tasks I do,
And let there be no doubt at all,
I really do love you.
Happy 25th Birthday Allan
to my baby brother allan happy 25th birthday
always thinking of you, i always tell the girls that you are looking down at them and that you are having a cup of tea with nan. love you loads,lots of love,hugs and kisses Pamela,Mat,Sophie,Charlotte,Abbie,Paige xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 25 kisses just for you
For Allan on His 25th Birthday
This year you'd be turning twenty-five;
I wonder who you would be?
Would you still be coming in our door
And living with Dad and me?
Or would you have a house of your own?
And maybe be married, too?
Would I have to talk to you on the phone,
In your busy life so new?
But, of course, these are only wishful dreams
And the way I wish it could be,
For God has chosen a different scheme
And you live far away from me.
And yet, my Son, you're always near
And you're always in our hearts;
Forever we will love you, dear,
And some day we'll never more part.
Copyright of Saralyn McAfree Smith
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My Baby Boy
my empty arms reach to hold you
all I grasp is empty air
you're no longer with us
doesn't anybody care?
no one wants to stop
I guess they don't know what to say
How do you say "I'm sorry,
your child has passed away?
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Your Special
You were born,
because you have a special place.
You're on a special mission,
Touched by God's grace.
You're the only one, Who could fulfil the role,
Because you have a unique talent,
Deep inside your soul.
In so many lives,
You play a special part,
Always touching,
Others hearts.
I miss you each and every day Allan. I will never forget you and will always love you. Sleep tight little angel xxxxxxx
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